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Seriously, I'm about to pee myself. I can't wait until tonight!!! Lost is my favorite show (other than Days of course) and I can't believe that it starts tonight. The wait is over! Yeah! I finished the ARG Find815 today and I'm pretty pleased with it. It led us along the path of the people who found the Oceanic 815 aircraft at the bottom of the ocean. Of course, it also started a whole new line of questions, as usual lol, but I don't mind that. Apparently tonight during the pilot of Eli Stone there is going to be a clue given that will unlock yet another website and what I believe will be another ARG about lost. Sweet! I can't wait. I was going to watch Eli Stone anyway (I love me some Johnny Lee Miller !) but knowing that there is going to be a clue to a "Golden Pass" for Lost just makes it better. Anyway, for those of you who watch Lost, enjoy tonight! Namaste.

You're Misinformed

Oh my god! I'm so over hearing about this! I didn't have any plans to talk about it because I figured people would figure out what a stupid falsehood this is, but I just got another email about it. So, I guess this lie about Barack Obama not saying the pledge of allegiance is still out there. First of all the photo that is making the rounds... shown here was NOT taken while the pledge of allegiance was being said, but while a woman was singing the star bangled banner. There is no rule that you need to place your hand over your heart while the star bangled banner is being sung. Next time you're at a sporting event watch the crowd and see how many people do it. I think you'll see that most people DO NOT cover there heart during that song.
ABC news reports about this story:

ABC News' David Wright and Sunlen Miller Report:
At a town hall meeting Wednesday an Iowa voter asked Senator Barack Obama, D-Ill., about the numerous emails she has received with photos purporting to show Obama "refusing" to pledge allegiance to the flag."You're standing with your arms folded and Hillary's got her hand on her heart," she said, adding that
she received so many of these emails she is sick of them. Obama shook his
head and smiled."This was not during the pledge of allegiance," Obama said
of the picture taken at Senator Tom Harkin's, D-Iowa, annual steak fry and
first published by Time. "A woman was singing the Star Spangled Banner when that picture was taken. See the original photo by clicking here. "I was taught by my grandfather that you put your hand over your heart during the pledge, but during the Star Spangled Banner, you sing!" Obama said. ABC News has video of the event in question which can be viewed by clicking here. Obama called the circulation of such pictures a "dirty trick" and mentioned other emails accusing him of being "a Muslim plant.""I have been pledging allegiance since I was a kid," Obama said. Obama advised his supporters who receive such emails to ignore them." Just tell whoever sent it," Obama told the crowd, "they're misinformed."

Below is the footage of the event:



Here is Barack's response to all the lies about him and his character.



Here is just one of many days that Barack led the pledge of allegiance in Senate.

In summary it just irritates me beyond belief that anyone would blindly believe an email about ANY candidate. This isn't just because I like Barack, I can handle people not liking my choice for President. What I can't handle is people getting a silly email and forwarding it on when they obviously didn't look into the facts behind it. You become part of the problem then. You are helping to spread lies. This next election is too important to let yourself get led by the hand by the media or by the politicians. We have waited for 8 years to be able to fix all that is wrong in our government. Don't let the media, or political bullshit trick you. Take the time and really look into what is being said about the candidates and what they stand for. Use some common sense!

Jerry O'Connell Tom Cruise Video Spoof

Heath Ledger: Dead at 28

Wow, just found out that they found Heath Ledger dead in his hotel room about an hour or so ago. I can't believe it! It's just so sad. I feel so bad for his family, especially his daughter. She's only two now, but to think she'll grow up now without her father. What a waste. Right now no one really can say what happened, although some sites are saying that pills were found on the be with him. I hope that isn't true. Not that his death is any less sad if it isn't, but it would be horrible to think that he died due to drug use. I was so looking forward to seeing him in The Dark Knight as the Joker, now it will be bittersweet. He was such a remarkable actor... what a loss.

"Now is the time to make real the promises of Democracy..."

Happy Birthday to My Love

I'm a Horrible Daughter

Somehow today the Lord of the Rings trilogy came up in conversation between my mother and I and she told me she still has not seen any of them!?! How is that possible? Seriously, I have seen them all so many times, I own them even, and yet I never watched them with her? I have failed her. So, I told her that will be fixed this weekend. We watched Fellowship today and we'll watch the other two tomorrow (hopefully, she may not be able to make it through 2 in one day.) Anyway, in other movie news I went back and updated my best of 2007. As I see more movies from last year that may happen. I had to add Sicko and A Mighty Heart to the list. Fantastic movies, both. I also finally watched Deathproof the other day. My thoughts? Well, I thought it was really good (great car chase scene and great gore/blood effects), however I thought that the ending "jumped the shark", so I didn't think it was great. I haven't watched Planet Terror yet, but I have it to watch next. I want to see No Country for Old Men!

For The Pink Ranger, From Tank Ass

So here I am again. It's 10 years today since I lost the love of my life, my partner, my joy. 10 years later and here I am again wondering what to do with this day. For the first time, I didn't think about him all day today. However, that still makes me feel guilty. I feel I'm at a place where I can finally think about him and smile. I don't feel like crying with every thought of him. It's taken 10 years to get to that point, so that's a big deal for me. Every now and then I might even mention his name when telling a story. That is also a pretty big deal for me. I don't talk about him to people, in fact I don't like to write about him here either, but I feel like it's good for me to do it. Writing about it here is easier than talking to someone face to face about him. See, no one gave a shit about him when he was alive... no one but me, so I don't feel like anybody has the right to talk about him to me now. They don't deserve to. They didn't know him, most of them didn't like him and some of them are glad he's dead now. So, you can understand if I'm reluctant to share my grief. So, I do it here and disable the comments because I don't want your opinion about it. I don't want sympathy. I don't want your helpful thoughts and insights. I want him. However, I know that thinking this way isn't good for me... so I try to get it out here. Here I can grieve without having to see others looking uncomfortable. So, what do I remember today? As I said before I'm finally to a point where I can think about him without it being sad. That being the case I think about him all the time now. I used to force him out of my head...I'm really good at that after all this time. If I feel the pain coming I just switch it off. Poof! He's gone. It's simple really. Now I don't have to do that as often. I remember so many great moments about him. He did a great impression of Leonardo DiCaprio in What's Eating Gilbert Grape. "I killed him Gilbert!" That still makes me laugh out loud. The first time we kissed. The story he told me about a little boy and a red rose. Today though, it gets harder. Each year on this day those great memories are tainted with the memory of his death. That horrible day. The way the police told me he was dead. The coroner actually blurted out to me "Oh, he's dead. Did they not tell you?" That is how I found out that my future was gone. That my life was forever altered. Then, without warning they showed me a picture of his body and asked me to identify him. I will never forget that picture. Never. ::Poof!:: That day also has great moments too. I'm so lucky because we got to say so much to each other. We got to say I love you. I got to kiss him one last time. That is what I'm going to do today. Rather than think about what I lost, I'm going to think about what we had. I'm so lucky. I found my "one". So many people go their whole lives never knowing that kind of love, and I had it. I didn't get to keep it forever, but I had it for awhile and it was the best thing that has ever happened to me. He changed me in every way possible and I'm so glad that we found our way to each other. I don't want his memory to make me sad anymore. I won't let grief steal the joy of him from me anymore. I got my sugar skull tattoo in honor of him. In honor of the death that we're all heading for, there is a beauty in that inevitability. I used to crave death. For years I've wanted death to come for me, and the sooner the better. The quicker I die, the quicker I'm reunited with him. Now, while I still look forward to being with him again, I know that everything happened as it needed to. I'll be with again one day... but I no longer hope for it to come. I've still got life to live here. That being said, I've still got a long way to go before I'm "healed" (whatever that even means). I still can't imagine being with anyone but him. I don't know if I ever will be. We'll see. I'm open to it... if it comes my way we'll see. I've let myself fall down a pretty deep well in 10 years... and it's going to take work to get out of it. The thing is that for the first time, I want to get out of it. After he died I felt like, without him what's the point? Now I know that I'M the point. The best way to remember him is to let myself be happy and live my life. I know that now, my love. I hear you telling me to live and I'm ready to. I look at your face in pictures and you seem like some dream I had a long time ago. Almost like an imaginary friend that I made up... but you were real. "Our love changed the world"... you said that to me the day you died and I've never forgotten it. I miss you everyday. I miss my friend. I miss talking to you, and hearing you laugh. So, on this day, although I'm crying now after writing this, I'm also smiling. I'm smiling because I knew you, and I'm a better person for it. Goodnight my angel... maybe I'll see you in my dreams tonight and we'll laugh and talk together. Until we do see each other again, you don't need to worry about me anymore. I think I'm going to be alright now. I love you.